Strength

During the past few weeks I have had my strength tested several times. The #metoo campaign brought very vivid memories flooding back. One night my boyfriend woke me from a nightmare. Apparently I was kicking violently in my sleep. I think he was grateful I was laying on my back and kicking up instead of … Continue reading Strength

Walls 

lack of confidence

The the more I slipped into depression the more my walls went up. I stayed to myself more and more. Lost my confidence, lost friends that didn't understand my self presevation, lost motivation for life in general. I thought I was protecting myself, but came to realize the barricaides were only making things worse. I … Continue reading Walls 

My Poem

I'm working on writing my story, but until then I found things in my old journals I'll share. This one is dark. When dealing with cancer you have dark days and dark thoughts no matter how positive you try to keep your thoughts. That's ok. Cancer is a dark and ugly disease. Some will try … Continue reading My Poem

Mia Bella

My gorgeous daughter surprised me last fall by telling me she was expecting. I didn't take it well at first because I wanted her to experience so much more in life. I then realized "I" don't get to make her life choices. Getting pregnant wasn't a choice, but her accepting it and taking on the … Continue reading Mia Bella