Today, 25 years ago, I was told I had an aggressive form of breast cancer.In 1996 there were no PET scans in my area. I didn't even get a CT scan. Though the process to stop cancer has been slow, there has been progress on finding it, and suppressing it. Unfortuatly, it is a very … Continue reading 25 Years of Cancer
I have to remember what I tell others, "Don't be ashamed of your story. It will inspire others." I looked through pictures today for this blog. It was tough on many levels. Remembering what I have endured, scrolling through pics with a guy I truly thought was my soulmate but left me, and looking at … Continue reading 5 Years of Wigs
My journey with cancer began in 1996 at the age of 31...
I was doing some reading on HER2+ metastatic breast cancer drugs Herceptin and Perjeta and came across this article. I did a bit of digging and found more. They are saying there is a 1% difference taking the combination than taking Herceptin alone. I started Herceptin in 2002 when my breast cancer metastasized farther. Before then I … Continue reading Stop Perjeta or not despite risks?
During the past few weeks I have had my strength tested several times. The #metoo campaign brought very vivid memories flooding back. One night my boyfriend woke me from a nightmare. Apparently I was kicking violently in my sleep. I think he was grateful I was laying on my back and kicking up instead of … Continue reading Strength
The the more I slipped into depression the more my walls went up. I stayed to myself more and more. Lost my confidence, lost friends that didn't understand my self presevation, lost motivation for life in general. I thought I was protecting myself, but came to realize the barricaides were only making things worse. I … Continue reading Walls
Do we live the life our mind tells us we want, or do we nourish what our heart and soul needs? My mind wants so many things, but my body doesn't always want to cooperate. Then there is also the financial issues of living with metastatic cancer. I am so grateful for the life I … Continue reading Quieting the noise
Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go, remember just how far you have come. Remember everything you have faced, The battles you have won, and the fears you have overcome. -unknown
I'm working on writing my story, but until then I found things in my old journals I'll share. This one is dark. When dealing with cancer you have dark days and dark thoughts no matter how positive you try to keep your thoughts. That's ok. Cancer is a dark and ugly disease. Some will try … Continue reading My Poem